Motion - new pathways - air -sea -land -us

[Former-Member]

Hello @StanD 

Thank you

You have shown me that you took time to think about my words to you and my suggestion of

me being me and you being you.

My giving you space does not mean my ignoring you. When I say that I will give someone space I mean that I will let them have time to think about what is the best choice for them. I will be guided by their response.

Yes I agree with you about mixed emotions also.

Recognising that you have them is a great help as you are given a chance to try to work out what the emotions might be as well as why you might be feeling them.

Here we are now.
You are using my language which lets me feel valued.

Do you remember feeling that and writing to me at the beginning of this thread that you experienced that? You will find it if you look back at your first posts on here.

so we have met again on a new pathway.

I too like this chapter and all of our travellers here.

This is what I think that your response was beautiful, caring and I feel valued 

Perhaps we are movers and shakers as well

@EternalFlower @StanD @tonys @tyme @chibam @LeChuck 

[Former-Member]

Hello @StanD 

I wanted to write separately about your loss of your beautiful grandma out of respect for yourself , family and your grandma.

I was deeply moved by the way you expressed your loss and honoured your beautiful, graceful grandma. She would be proud of her grandson.

My late grandma was always beautifully dressed and graceful. Her’s was not a classic beauty. She was vivacious and loved life. She had the most beautiful smile and was a dancer in musical theatre. It was her whole persona that shined. Her eyes always sparkled . Stars. I felt very drawn to her vibe.

We have our memories of them always.

[tonys]

Hello @StanD  @Former-Member  @LeChuck  @Jynx  @EternalFlower   How are you all.  Just wanted to say what I am sure you all already know.   

These forums and threads are like passing trains,  Its too easy to miss a few posts.  letters caught and lost in the whirlwind wakes of those speeding leviathans.   Sooo ,  If I miss a letter or forget too support one,  please know that I do read, enjoy and care for all on this thread.

Peak of harvest and farm life often finds me falling asleep just logged in and reading..   Therapeutic and relaxing I guess.   

Stan D.  Sorry for your loss my friend.  You get old and it seams like every other weak someone we love is lost to us.     That may be why we slowly gain weight as we age.  We still carry em.

The ebb and flow of interactions on this thread,   Its an Insight into give and take,  live and let live.   Avoiding land mines and not leaving any as we go.   Utilising shell craters,  and protecting the man next too you.   

Can be a challenge at times,  but end game is,  you don't finish  up as strips of flesh,  hanging off  barbed wire in no mans land, .  . and when you set your white doves free,  . . they don't return with blood on their wings.

 Siesta time. . .   stay  safe and bless you all.                  Tonys moon base 1

[EternalFlower]

Hi @StanD I'm sorry for your loss and for this painful time.

I hope you are ok. I am thinking of how lovely your grandma was and how you would've respected her and got a gift of seeing someone so graceful and pretty..grace is pretty hard to come by... And pretty magnificent to behold.

Thank U for your empathy to me. I feel scared of being pounced on or told to try harder. You are wise and see that I have tried, we do try, and you're right then it is self blamed a cycle of thinking one missed something or could've done more.

I loved your response about planning to do nothing. I love your honesty.

Thank U ❣️

[StanD]

Hey @LeChuck good to hear from you & thanks for the friendly shout out to us.

I'm sitting in an over grown garden rn. It's pretty & not. Ramshackle. Needs work. A fair amount. I see potential, kind of more potential now. The birds are everywhere here. Like lots of birds.

Gotta go.

I think I like it here.

[EternalFlower]

Hi @tonys no worries  re missed trains there are many people here and conversations circling that sometikes a word or meaning is messed.

I am at home and smiling as the light is reflecting off of a metal bowl and it looks aglow like a candle. I do sometimes light candles to calm myself at night when I feel distressed or hopeless or memories are too much. 

Hope you had a good day in nature and feel calm and restful inside in a way, peace and truth.

Ive been feeling terror at 🌃, bad sleep and not feeling ok in my skin. Everything seems so messy and distressed around me, at night it deflates me.

I hate where I live, so noisy and not private but this is where I am for now, what I can afford. Yet some spaces are so dark, so not fresh, so not homely ....I think home is elusive.

Your writing is delightfully honest and helpful...a gift I think for us to hold to 

I try hold onto pieces I can find to stand upright. Tomorrow I will try get an earlier appointment with my Dr so I can get care sooner and shake off some pain, which is weighing me down. Waiting another week to see him after my epic late session is too much. I hope I will get accepted for an earlier appointment, but mostly I am glad the weekend is over. It had some moments .

[StanD]

Love your understanding, compassion, & big encouragement @EternalFloweryou teach me about the value & beauty of soft. 

Hello @Former-Member !

@tonys hello tonys. You still up? What's new?

I know I'm meant to be going to bed or sleep. I too am awake. 

I don't even know what to say. It was a day. Good. Frustrating. Very good. It was. It is. It is what it is. What was it. Seperated. Fast. Calm. Intercepted. Intersecting. Insecting. Bugs. The look. Why can he look  finally. Yes, that's what it was. Oh, the dust. I feel relieved. My God, the absolute relief. Burdens lifted. Parted sees. Haha. What a relief. Blueberries & I scream. Tea & whipped cream. The nightmare its over. I wake up in my dream. Stepping down steps. Bluestone.. flowers, grass, streams almost my feet. I'm tired now. I sleep. I write as I sleep..,words in a dream. tumbling down. ball falls down steps rolls onto grass lands crushing flowers. I see ball wants me.

[tonys]

Hello my old friend  @EternalFlower   Small hours.  The vail of sleep has lifted from me for a moment and I so wish I could send it like a soft woollen blanket to you.   

It makes me so sad.   I know just how important a home is to a lady.   Those little treasures that help to soften the harshness of those dark woods beyond the windows.  The blankets we clutch,  the soft familiarity.   And now in disarray they have to all be restored to there rightful place on the shelfs of our minds.   .    .   and our homes.

There is a place ,    right where the candle flames tip flickers that science still cant explain.

maybe that is why you and me can stare into that fame for hours,   for get the world for a moment,   and dream of a better one..

I lived in dark worlds.  My only friend,  the best set of headphones my diverted food allowance could afford and a music box.   Sucked into a wormhole to a world of music never to return.

Even the devil pounding at my door could gain no entry.

We find new ways you and me.    Nothing gonna keep us down for ever.   I  know you are getting advice from all directions.   So I'm just going to keep the campfire burning,  and a warm blanket stories and poems when you need a shoulder.  

Your friend tonys   moon base        1

[hanami]

Hi @StanD @Former-Member @tonys @EternalFlower @LeChuck 

It's so nice to see you all making good connections. Hope you're all having a good day and it's not too hot where you all are.

Hanami

[StanD]

Hello @hanami thankyou for popping your head in. Welcome. Hope your day is sunny.