I've been of late trying to make a conscious effort to limit my alcohol consumption. How easy it is to fall into old habit old patterns.
Nonetheless I find myself drawn to the forum again hoping everyone is well and a friendly reminder that it is ok to be not ok.
I am not ok, I am again finding things tough but I know I will make it through this I have so many times before, I am hopeful of this and part of that comes from knowing I will do what needs to be done.
I reached out to friends and it supports linked in with my gp and got a new mental health care plan and called around for a psychologist to get me in sooner rather than later.
But in the immediate I have spoke to work and to my partner I have limited my exposure to stressful social situations which is tough around Christmas for me.
I am not ok But I will be And that's ok I'll get back there again I know what to do And know that I have support I've done this a long time now mang ups and downs My recovery journey isn't a straight line Neither has been my life Ups and downs Always ups and downs Every up I try stay grounded and not fly fly away Every down I try lift my self back up lift my chin up hold my head high
This is just another bump in the road as jarring as it is It's a good reminder that even though the old days the wild days the lost days the unwell days are behind me They are right behind me It's a reminder to stay on guard To stay vigilant To flex the knowledge and wisdom I've learnt To use the tools at my disposal
To keep your cutlass clean
Because you never know when you will need them And I am needing them now and won't hesitate a moment longer to utilise every weapon in my arsenal to combat this
