Support for Flowerlove22

[AuntGlow]

How are you, lovely? @Sunnyside226 💛

Also, hello @PeppyPatti, thank you for being here too. 🫶

[Sunnyside226]

Hey aunty glow @AuntGlow   

I'm I don't know    lost hurt empty worthless  feeling  tbh I don't know 

It's one thing after the other    I hate December    they died on the weekend planning a funeral helping too 

Next week is mums anniversary since she died    the "new family members " I told you about  they being mean saying I shouldn't be alive  ( your welcome to remove it if need)   

I went out this morning did some testing to see if I have ocd. I didn't talk  much  everything feels heavy. 

This world sucks.    @AuntGlow  how are you aunty glow,   when you called me by my nickname I smiled I haven't smiled since they passed.  

[PeppyPatti]

Aww thanks 🌿🦆🏡💕🧚🏽‍♀️

@AuntGlow @tyme @Sunnyside226 @Dreamy @rav3n 

[Dreamy]

@Sunnyside226 thinking of you while everything feel heavy right now.

I'm around if you want/need to chat. 

We are always here for you ❤️.

[Sunnyside226]

Thanks @PeppyPatti 

Thanks @Dreamy  

I don't know anymore it feels like everyone in my family are dying or are dead    maybe the world is telling me my time will be next or something   my head is  like what if it's my sister or another sibling is next   

It's hard when everyone in this world excepts  me to be happy.  

I feel like my life is failing.   Didn't mean to ramble 

[Dreamy]

@Sunnyside226 you're not rambling, I'm really glad you are sharing how you are feeling. 

I know it's hard losing people and I'm sorry you've gone through so much loss in your family. 

I hear you when you say that everyone expects you to be happy but feeling how you are right now is valid and it's completely ok to not be happy right now. 

[AuntGlow]

Hey @Sunnyside226, 

That's okay, those feelings are allowed to be there... this all sounds so incredibly hard for you right now. I can hear there's a lot of complex grief and pain around what you've experienced, and to have people say such unkind and untrue things to you, isn't fair at all. Please know that what they are saying is a reflection of them and not of you. 💛

I can imagine it would have been very hard to talk... was this with a therapist?

The world really can suck. 😔

Are your partner and sister there for you right now?

Aww, I am glad Sunny. 🫶

[Sunnyside226]

@AuntGlow aunty glow @Dreamy 

Can I just give up too.  

@Dreamy.  I know it's ok to have feelings let them out  but honestly there's so much judgement and shame name calling in this world.  I don't share a lot about my feelings thoughts or personal life    I've been shamed before 

Anyway how's Casper?  I can't remember if you ended up putting your Xmas tree up or not?  

@AuntGlow 

I just want to give up life is too much

Why does everyone in my family die and hate me.  Have I missed something about myself?  Is it me? It is my gender?  Am I doing something wrong to be so hated? 

Do you mean about the ocd? Or something else?  

Yep the world can suck 

Yeh they  are but I am in a different room because I don't feel comfortable being around them right now  maybe because too much has happened I just want to be alone.  

Bye night aunty glow 💛💛🫂 (hugs if you like) 

[Dreamy]

@Sunnyside226 you most certainly cannot give up, I know things are hard right now but you are strong and you'll get through this and we will be with you every step of the way ❤️.

I understand, I've felt that shame and judgement from others too and I know how much it hurts. We are always here to listen without judgement and we certainly will not make you feel any shame for your feelings cos they are always valid.

Casper is doing well. I've put my tree up but I'm yet to take photos so I'll try to do that tomorrow.

I'm not sure if you are up for me sharing some stitch pictures right now and if you're not that's completely ok. But I found a couple of things at the shops the other day and got really excited and had to buy them. 

[Sunnyside226]

@Dreamy 

I'm trying to be strong   I feel weak. 

Thanks for that lovely message

I understand it's easier for others to judge someone so quickly.  Like when I've made mistakes on here people are so quick to judge or hate me  we all make mistakes nobody is perfect.  

I do try  my best. 

I'm sorry your had that shame too. 

Glad he's well.  Is it the stitch one? Or a surprise lol 

your welcome to share your stitch pics. Might be a good distraction.   If your up to sharing of course.